Ex-Teammate Says Aaron Hernandez’s Conflict Over Sexuality Was Part of Larger Struggle

Aaron Hernandez seemed like a man who was destined for great things as football came way too easy for him and it was just a matter of time before he made it to the NFL.

The 6-foot-4 and 245 pound man was a key member of the Florida Gators’ 2008 national title team. On the field, we knew what Hernandez was about, but privately, he seemed to be dealing with some inner demons. His father passed away in 2006 and he had issues with his mother, Terri, according to a former teammate.

“One minute she was dead to him, the next minute, he wanted to call her to see how she was,” a teammate tells PEOPLE.

“Everything about Aaron was a struggle,” the teammate says. “He had these really angry outbursts a lot, over insignificant things. And when he started, he couldn’t stop.”

One of the biggest issues with Hernandez is that he was struggling with his sexuality and that allegedly led to him having relationships with both men and women.

Via People:

The teammate said: “He wanted to be the big man on campus who was having sex with a lot of women, but then he’d find guys on the down low. The girls were public, the guys were not.”

The teammate also talked about his anger issues.

He said: “Everything about Aaron was a struggle. He had these really angry outbursts a lot, over insignificant things. And when he started, he couldn’t stop.”

The book, Aaron Hernandez Killing Fields, also details a published letter that is allegedly written by Hernandez to his alleged prison lover Kyle Kennedy.

“I just wanted to tell you this morning that I love you,” the letter said. “You never have to question us. I will stop questioning you and us. I realized through our thing over the past few days how much I love you and how much I want you and us. Mainly how I want you [to] know what real love, real loyalty is, and to experience someone who is with you through all in life.”

Before he was arrested and ultimately killed himself in prison, Hernandez had recorded 1,956 yards and 18 touchdowns in three years with the Patriots.

He was just 27-years-old when he took his life.